You know, you're right. It's not been an awful week, considering the potential.
I'm not fed-up with your lack of resolution. Please consider that I haven't been alone with you -- I can't be too invested. We were close enough with the "two years to get to second base" comment, which, while it may not have been directed at us, was placed to elicit some sort of response. That's what I need to be detached from.
And when my counterpart goads you into some sort of action, I'm, strangely, left with the ethical dilemma of egging you on along side her or making sure you are tempered enough to not end-up burned-out (literally), dead, dismembered, or otherwise crushed. Yes, you have to make changes. No, you don't have to go in all hot-headed and pissed-off.
Our lives are these distorted reflections of each other. I'm hoping to not manage to get where you're at. Which seems like using your marriage to canary my own. Selfish and self-centered. But that's not quite what's happening. I still feel guilty and evil. All-around.
Even with that, I enjoy the time we steal. I like you. I enjoy our time together. And this will manage to survive regardless.
Reading Material:
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/tracy-mcmillan/why-youre-not-married_b_822088.html
http://www.slate.com/id/2286240/
I disagree with bunches of this. Sure you will, too. It'll give you something else to be angry at. :)
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