Since That Worked

I suppose I can manage a real response.  :)

I have no idea what you want.  I don't know what to tell you when you ask me these questions.  As strong as my opinions are -- you can attest to this after today -- this is something you have to decide for yourself.  Without my influence.  You have to consider what you want independent of my role in your life.

My own life is unlikely to change in the near future.  I don't want to lose my marriage, and the physical stuff would matter to him.  I can love you all day long -- as long as there's no touching -- and he's fine.  The second it becomes physical, there's a problem.  And yes, this would have to stop if he found out.  Have to.  I've spent years building this.

I adore you.  I love you.  I'll always be devoted to you, and, if I'm good, we'll always have this anonymous line of communication.  I married him and I need to do what he wants.  I'm a woman of my word, and I gave it to him.  We are a household.  A family.  Because I threw my lot in with his, I have an obligation -- and he deserves it.

You and I, in my mind, are as constant as he and I are.  I'm happy when I'm near you.  In a very real sense, we belong to each other.

This answers nothing.  It merely solidifies a certain level of mud in the water.

This would have been less complicated had we met more than a decade ago.

We would have been legendary.